Tell you what, i'm kinda pissed off right now. I don't know why. but lately, i've have this feeling angst of mine is outta control. So am i'm piss off at someone or am I just imagining things? but hey, i think its the 1st one. Cause you know why, i'm very dissapointed in someone. Someone whom I cared much and never thought things could go wrong. But yes of course, in the reality world, i'm wrong. I feel i'm so caught in the middle. Tried my best to do things right for the someone and then it get wasted. yeap WASTED. Like i didn't see it coming. For a moment I thoughtthis wasn't for real but sure enough it is. Aww. So Sad. Al is a loser. He didn't win. He does things crap shit that no one gives a fucking care. But so what. Of course i didn't care. Eh wait. I'm lying. Damn it. This is so so sad. I even lied to myself. Why? i don't know.

I always ask myself why i'm making so much troubles for myself just to make someone feels good and happy. Giving he/she what they wanted. I mean, I don't do things for fun unless its a harmless pranks. Don't people care a thing or two about me? Why my existence? Why help? Wy trouble so much? So many Why's and no answer to it. Really sick of this. Sick sick sick.

So does things happen because of a reason? yes they do. Of course that,I believe. Sigh. I don't wanna look back anymore. its too much of me to handle. I wanna be the meanier me. Mean than ever. SO how will that possible? I'll soon find out.

Bye.