I've been miserable lately. As for today, feel so confused. I still have not made up my mind yet. Thanks to my parents, I have to re-think about my choices of instituition. Firstly, i already made up my damn mind to go MDIS and study for 7 months as the course take up only that duration. Then after that, will go for NS enlistment. That was my plan. But after today, after mom blabber on my choice, i was once again confuse. Now she said that i should take poly or ite. Well, i did get to poly but not my course. She said that private diploma is not foreseen by employers. -.- she gets influence by my sister and all. Have they gone insane or what. I mean, have they really check on it on the 1st place? That certainly pull down my hopes and confidence. So my parents now do make a twist in their words. Then they keep asking me why never go poly and ask me what i wanna become in the future. For god damn sake, i've already plan it. I just wish they can just support me without those blabbering nonsense. So now, my mind is tied up. And dad said that I just go for NS first then make my damn decision. And that really pissed me off. And mom says i'm a person who have confidence but don't know how to use it. And she said something that pisses me off. So am I what she said is real?

I really don't know what to do now. thinking makes me more confuse. Right now, I don't have anyone to share this feelings of mine because people are very busy. And i really like to confide to myself. So do I have any future? I have to think all over again...

Bye.